As time of prayer, thought and discussion have come and gone I finally feel at ease about a couple of things. (PRAISE GOD)
Though I may be scared of certain things now, there is no need of a committment anytime soon. How often do people my age forget about this? The pressures of society on the 20-somethings is rediculous. No wonder the divorce rate is so high.
I refuse to give in.
I want to jump -- into the excitement of the now, experience love without holding back. I want to say yes.
As scared as I may be, with slight hesitation I am oh so tired of fearing regret.
I'm ready to fall and rely on the Lord to guide me, to jump off of the balance beam as some may say.
forgetting what lies behind I press on to what lies ahead.
The Lord is good. I think I may be starting to really, honestly believe this.
In His grace.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Growing up already?
So as graduation is slowly but quickly approaching I once again find myself in a whirlwind of anxiety. It does not seem like 4 years have come and gone. The reality of life is staring me in the face and I want to run and hide under the blanket of my youth in my parents house. Is it bad to be this scared of not only graduating, but potentially getting married, finding a career and supporting myself completely?
I know it's exciting and I've been waiting for this time for 21 years, however I am finding out that the world we live in is not so sweet. Its a world with high divorce rates, no jobs avaiable and dissapointment around every corner. Yes I know this sounds terribly depressing and that the entire world isn't as horrible as I may make it out to be, but the truth of this situation is that I have never been so unsure, so scared in my entire life.
The only thing I am left to do is to stop and breathe. Realize that there is something bigger than the economy, bigger than a marriage and thats the only thing that I need to focus on. Jesus' grace surpasses every tiral I may face, every time I may fall, every decision I get wrong. I can only pray that my eyes will be on the One who is worth it all, the One who will hopefully say at the end "well done my good and faithful servent"
I know it's exciting and I've been waiting for this time for 21 years, however I am finding out that the world we live in is not so sweet. Its a world with high divorce rates, no jobs avaiable and dissapointment around every corner. Yes I know this sounds terribly depressing and that the entire world isn't as horrible as I may make it out to be, but the truth of this situation is that I have never been so unsure, so scared in my entire life.
The only thing I am left to do is to stop and breathe. Realize that there is something bigger than the economy, bigger than a marriage and thats the only thing that I need to focus on. Jesus' grace surpasses every tiral I may face, every time I may fall, every decision I get wrong. I can only pray that my eyes will be on the One who is worth it all, the One who will hopefully say at the end "well done my good and faithful servent"
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