running

Have you ever felt that you just want to run away? And keep running until you find yourself in a completely new place, with new people and new expectations? This has been my dream for the last week.
Though I know God is faithful and good and gives everlasting joy I still find myself overwhelmed with depression and guilt. How do I chose what to do?
My heart is torn between loves
My mind is torn between thoughts
and My body is torn between places.

Will I ever have peace about one thing in my life? Will God ever give me a break from this anxiety and grief? What sin have I welcomed into my life that has left me with this sort of pain? How can God free me from it? How can I follow him knowing that I will hurt other people?

Jesus take me up to the heavens so I can be made whole.